Becoming Mommy

Ever since I can remember, I've always wanted to be a mom. When I was 3 years old, I had a baby doll I would take everywhere with me. As I grew older and realized carrying a doll everywhere wasn't socially acceptable, I decided to just have "make believe children". That's right, instead of "make believe friends" that everyone else had, I had children. I would care for them, help them if they got "hurt", and punished them when they were "bad". I have always wanted to be a mom, and I knew that the moment Bryant and I got married, that could become a reality sooner rather than later. I just didn't realize how fast it would actually happen for us, and let me tell you, the moment I found out I was pregnant I was shocked. So shocked, I cried. Here we were, barely newlyweds, just learning about marriage and we were pregnant. This was not what I wanted, or had even considered a possibility so early on. But, as we took the time to pray and soak in the fact that we would be parents within the next 8 months, the news became less and less of shock and more excitement. Sure, getting pregnant so early on was not a part of the "plan", but as many of you know who have followed my life story, nothing ever goes as planned. But, boy am I so grateful for that, because I've learned that God has a way better plan for me than I could ever imagine. Now here I am, 22 weeks pregnant with a little boy who has already stolen my heart. He is the love of my life and I know he will bless us beyond measure, I mean, he already has. Bryant and I's relationship has grown in ways I never thought it could in such a short amount of time. Bryant is my rock and I love seeing and learning about parts of his personality I may have not seen so quickly had I not become pregnant so soon. Becoming a mommy has been my life long dream and now that it's a reality I can't help but sit in awe of my body as it grows and changes to accommodate such a miracle. Life has never been so miraculous and I can't wait to see what else the Lord has in store for us as we get one step closer to forever.